It’s been over three months babe, since you left.  It still seems unreal.  I just don’t know what happened, one day we’re laughing about stupid stuff and just living life.  The next day I am facing the next thirty years without you by my side.  We fit together perfectly.  God put you in my path because He knew you were what I needed.

I read somewhere about the three timelines:  the past, present, and future.  We need to spend the proper amount of energy and thought in all three.  Spend too much time in the past, you get depression.  Too much time in the future, you get anxiety.  I definitely have both those.  When you were with me, we spent the most amount of time in the present.  We did that because we both knew that is what we had.  You lived that way every day.

I’m sitting here watching youtube videos and it never ends well.  There will be a song come on or a picture of a couple, sometimes it stabs so deep in my heart it physically feels as if I’m dying.  I miss you so much babe, but it is something I will get through and see you soon. I love you.